I think that the process of child-bearing is just as difficult as God wants it to be. It’s symbolic of the worth of souls.
For as long as I can remember, I have believed that we are each of infinite worth. Don’t you feel that? Each individual life is so precious. When I see goodness in others or beauty or humility or even pain, there’s something in my heart that whispers, “this is not all there is”. I feel that we are more than the here and now.
More than that, I have a conviction that the little things we do to help, serve and love each other—those things matter. As one of my favorite LDS speakers, President Dieter Uchtdorf explained, “God knows that some of the greatest souls who have ever lived are those who will never appear in the chronicles of history. They are the blessed, humble souls who emulate the Savior’s example and spend the days of their lives doing good.”
I believe that. That truth is empowering. It puts life in perspective and makes me happy to be where I am.
I have learned something about the worth of souls from motherhood.
I have wondered many times why it is so hard to have a baby. If God designed this process, couldn’t he have made it a little less terrifying and life-threatening? It has slowly dawned on me that the answer is, yes. He could have. However, I think that the process of child-bearing is just as difficult as God wants it to be. It’s symbolic of the worth of souls.
I’ll tell you what, after I had my son, I gained a fierce sense of the sanctity of life. In fact, I walked around in a state of amazement that there are so many people on the planet— and each person was carried for 9 months and birthed individually (for the most part). What a staggering amount of work and pain and sacrifice when considered collectively—And more importantly, a staggering amount of love.
As for myself, after all my work to become a mother, I felt like a different person. So. Much. Love. My heart didn’t just expand to make room for my baby. I felt more love for children in general. Aren’t they amazing?!? Well, to me, all of these experiences are a witness of God’s divine purposes. Life is a great teacher and the more I learn, the more I feel that we are each of infinite worth.